baby pictures

How strange it is to see my own face and smile staring back at me from these twentyplus year-old photographs. I want to sit down with that baby girl and tell her a thing or two. Mostly that it will all be okay.

neveragain

Heartbreak blows.

the list

- tall, just a little scruffy but still clean, smiley with nice eyes
- understands that cargo shorts are a no-no and owns a well-tailored suit
- intelligent, preferably smarter than I am but with different areas of expertise
- a reader who knows how to spell and is relatively capable of constructing a passable sentence
- funny and self-aware without being too self-conscious, comfortable in a crowd
- intrigued by art and capable of discussing it without stepping too far into pretension, and equally intrigued and capable of discussing pop culture
- non-judgmental of my past and understanding of my home and family
- open to adventure

 IS THIS SO MUCH TO ASK

it just is.

You guys. This thing, this thing that we wake up to every morning... I think it is wonderful.

little old

It always surprises me when I actually make an impression on people.

summer school

What I've learned so far this summer. 1. Life is meant for playing. The hard work should merely interject, rather than the other way around. 2. Malibu will always give me a hangover. Always. 3. Friends and family can never be overrated. 4. I love the Olympics and reality TV, and I am unashamed. 5. Hot weather's great and all, but there does come a breaking point. If I'm ever going to move south, it had better be for the sake of the ocean. 6. Not everyone in this world is a nice person. I will always be surprised when people don't like me, though.

crushing cans

High school never really ends.

it's simple, really

Home brings everything back to where it is supposed to be. My soul can settle comfortably into its old resting space, and my mind can wander a bit, tracing and re-tracing the steps I have taken in order to make my return. I can't stay here, but there is a lingering sweetness to each brief stay, and I'll be able to carry my happiness back with me.

lately

My heart beats faster, lately. I find that I don't mind a lack of sunshine. I gave my recital and was disappointed in myself, but it mattered less, somehow. I think perhaps because I have realized what it is that I need to do, and I simply need lots and lots of time in order to do it. Life is funny.